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alexisjane ([personal profile] alexisjane) wrote2015-10-02 03:28 pm

Thoughts

I'm upset, and conflicted.



I've been spending the last couple of hours trying not to cry. This whole Dreamweaver thing has just been so wearing. Not so much because of finally getting confirmation on what it seems many of us had suspected and dismissed in the past, but because of the way it seems to be bringing everybody together in a great outpouring of love and support.

I just wish we could have had that a few months ago when DW started a hate post against someone who dared question the authenticity of his life. Then, a fair few number of people felt justified in jumping on his bandwagon and vilifying someone, without knowing all the facts or the intentions of that person. The anguish caused by that...it was bad, really really bad.

So while I'm happy that everyone is going to be a little more loving and hopefully a little more cautious in the future, I hope everyone is going to take a breath next time one of us histrionically announces they're being bullied or whatever. Communication on the internet is fraught with misunderstanding at the best of times, and people's intentions are never clear cut even away from the screen.

I was ready to delete my journal this morning, I'm so upset about this. The worst thing is that the person involved has such a huge capacity for love and forgiveness than in all this, they never once had a bad word to say about anyone. Including DW. In fact I wouldn't be surprised if they ask me to delete this : )

Having said that, I'm so happy and proud to know everyone on my f-list. I think people will always try to fool us, and they will probably succeed. But I would much rather have that than never know any of you : )

I do truly love your faces ♥ xxx

[identity profile] havenseptember6.livejournal.com 2015-10-03 02:39 am (UTC)(link)
Hey - I'm friends with Milly as well as some others on here. I was completely duped by DW, and believed everything he said. I feel really upset and stupid, but the worst thing is that I was supportive of him when this person you're talking about found out that he wasn't who he said he was. I sided with DW and now I feel horrible. I don't know who it was, but if you could, would you please tell them I'm so sorry for my reaction. They were obviously trying to do a good thing, and I feel awful that they were hurt by others because of DW's lies. They did nothing wrong, and I will definitely be much more careful about my reactions in the future. I'm just sorry they had to be hurt because of it. Please let them know that. Thank you for your help!