Day Six

[alexisjane]

Day Six


In your own space, share a book/song/movie/tv show/fanwork/etc that changed your life. Something that impacted on your consciousness in a way that left its mark on your soul.

Star Wars

I know it sounds weird but I've thought about this hard.

I was five when it came to the cinema in our small town and I remember being in the queue and thinking that I'd never seen so many people in my life. I remember thinking the opening sequence was the most amazing thing I'd ever seen but I don't remember watching the movie though.

I do remember several years later it being on TV at Christmas. I don't remember watching it but I do remember sitting in the window seat in the living room with the Christmas edition of the TV guide that had the poster with all the characters on the cover, just staring at it and re-running the movie over and over and over in my head so I wouldn't forget it and crying because Luke was so sad and alone and my mum telling me not to be so stupid.

I remember going to see Empire Strikes Back though and realising that Han Solo was so much hotter and cooler and strangely better than Luke. I think it was the scream that did it. Still love that scream : ) And that moment. That perfect moment "I am your Father" How perfect! How shocking! What unbelievable storytelling! It's been quoted to death but at the time, that first time, it floored everybody.

And I remember leaving the theatre and my aunt musing why Luke didn't bleed when his hand got cut off and I said "Because it was a clean cut" and everyone really laughed and I realised I could be funny but later when I said it again no-one laughed so I figured I wasn't that funny.

I don't really remember Jedi except when it ended and I felt that surge of happiness in  my chest it was quickly followed by 'Yes, but what happens next? what am I going to do now?'

So Star Wars. Made me fall in love with the oh so human anti-hero, just a man but who would overcome his own limitations and do great things. A man that screams so pretty you just can't help but want to hurt him a little. With stories that go on and on, that you can't bear to be without for a moment, With stories that you capture in your brain and run over and over and maybe make up new stuff so they never run out. And it's okay if you're not that funny or other people want to make you feel stupid and silly for liking it because the characters are real, in your mind at least and that's okay because it makes life better.

I feel like I want to say that it didn't touch my soul so much as shaped it...but I hear my mothers voice telling me not to be so daft.

She just doesn't get it  : ) x