alexisjane

I have rewritten Gazes Into You.

I always intended to publish this as an original fic... although I wasn't expecting on getting it out quite so soon.
I'm just waiting for it to get back from the editor and then I'll put it up on Amazon, etc. So, two weeks?

What this does mean though is that I'm going to be TAKING DOWN the J2 version. So, if you want to download that from AO3, do it soon.

Just so's you know, I am happy for the J2 version to be shared between y'all in the future. I just can't have it online with the official version available.

As always, I'll be giving out a bunch of ARCs (Advanced Review Copies) once I've formatted the files, so if you want to get one of those, just let me know. And I do a ton of giveaways and free promo stuff on a regular basis so if you don't want to pay cash money for this, there will be an opportunity to get your hands on it gratis in the future. All I ask is a quick review or rating on Goodreads or Amazon. Doesn't even have to be a positive one : ) No, really...it all about the algorithm...or something.

I have no idea what I'm doing...
Anyway.

I got four more planned in this series, so I'm hoping people like this one. I mean, creepy stalker ex-cop getting all hurt/comfort sexytimes with a *coughs*Stockholm Syndrome*coughs* much younger stranger... what's not to like!? : )

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Ex-detective John Right likes to watch.
There's no harm in it.

The latest object of his obsession—a twenty-something stranger who chains his bike outside John's office—doesn't feel the weight of John's eyes on him, doesn't know about the secret recordings or what John does with them in the dead of night. Except when the kid disappears, John finds himself doing far more that just watching.
Reluctantly, John has to start thinking like a cop once more as he frantically tries to track down his mystery man. Although when he finds him, John is left with more questions than answers. And the more he learns, the more he wishes he'd never started looking in the first place.
Can John get to the bottom of the mystery without giving away his own dirty secret? And without giving in to his urge to do more than simply watch?

Well...nobody's perfect.

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My head's spinning a little.

It's been a fairly stressful couple of weeks and I've got a couple more to go – tether...I'm at the end of it – but today...

"Home..." is up for Book of the Week on Love Bytes reviews!!!

Which is kinda crazy as I hadn't realised the review had even come out yet, let alone that it received 4.5 stars!

The top two books from this poll go through to the Book of the Month thingy at the end of the month, which would be amazing, although I'm not holding out much hope with K-Lee Klien and Kade Harper on the list : ) But regardless it's an amazing feeling to see my name next to theirs so it's cheered me up no end.

If you like to vote for "Home..." I think you can just tickety the box on this link - POLL

It might seem a silly thing but it would help me a lot in getting the book "out there" which is the hardest thing when you're self publishing.

But also, I'm SUPER EXCITED about being in a poll!!!

Thank you for voting in advance ♥ ♥ ♥

So yesterday, one of my family members started following me (author me) on Twitter.

As the kids would say, shits getting real, yo.

I've been ummimg and ahhing for ages about taking down some of my more extreme fic from AO3, and that's really made the decision for me. And I'm going to be f-locking most of the fic on my journal too.

So, if you want a Mobi or PDF of Gods and Monsters or Wheelhouse or whatever, go get it now, because in a week it'll be gone ♥

I promise I will shut up about this eventually...

I wrote a thing about having my short story published and RJ Scott put it on her blog...where people can see it!

I'm not hyperventilating, you're hyperventilating.

Also...like some kind of...I don't even know what...I now have a Goodreads Author page.

How fricken ridiculous is that! Anyway, if you do the Goodreads thing you can friend me or somethingorother, also there's an Ask the Author thing when you can ask me embarrassing questions and I'll come up with some insane story about being a competitive alpaca breeder in my spare time, or something. And you can leave a review for my story, if you feel like it. I won't cry. I probably won't cry. Okay, there maybe crying.



Disclaimer - I don't own the rights to this image. If you know who does please let me know. My Google fu is lame. I'm just borrowing it.

I just read an article about a court case and I just...

( RL dub con like...wtf? )

Just when you think you've heard everything, the capacity of human beings to do the most bizarre, stupid things never fails to surprise.


In other news, I was seriously impressed that I managed to do the dishes last night while under the influence. I was, however, surprised to find a ladder in my hallway, and that I answered a few comments* too! I should drink more often : ) Clearly, I get stuff done : )

Your faces...I love them ♥

*apologies for any overt dorkishness while hammered : /

So, Lynn Anderson died, which is sad. Rose Garden is one of those songs that I love but also resent for being such an ear worm -- once I hear it I can't stop singing it!

But then all roads lead to Wincest...

( H/c mini-ficlet or prompt if anyone one wants it : ) )

So, the epic second (third?) draft of the BB begins, and in an effort to break away from the  "He said. He said" thing, I'm making myself a crib sheet (or twelve) of words to use instead of, or in addition to 'said', so it reads a bit better.

I've taken suggestions from about five different sources and have amalamated them into a giant, vaguely alphabetical list. I'm going to try to wrangle it into something more usable at some point but I thought I'd leave it here just in case anyone else might find it useful.

If you spot any duplicates or omissions, do please let me know.

Gonna try and get some actual work done now : )

Miss your faces ♥

( Long, Long, Long List of Words )

Dearest Big Bang Author

I tried to resist you, but the lure of polyamorous J3 and J2M just proved too much.

Come make yourself known! There will be snuggling and cookies...maybe even art and stuff ♥


Title: Life Is
Pairing: Jared/Jensen/Misha
Rating: NC-17
Summary:
Life is what happens while you're making other plans. They've got it all figured out. Their life, their house, their mortgage, 'til death do us part – until that's what actually happens. It's way too soon when Jeff dies and leaves Jensen and Jared to sort out what they are without him. And then there's that guy at the funeral home with the sympathetic blue eyes who's the first and only one to get what it means to lose someone in a polyamorous relationship.

I've been having a massive crisis of confidence about my writing.

I haven't really wanted to talk about it as I think it's perfectly normal and I've been trying not to let it get to me. But it's hard when I feel like I don't have the time to properly concentrate on my WIPs so they're rushed and scrappy, and the BB is just endless and wholly unsatisfying to write at the moment. I've been dragging my feet with it as I can't stand writing when every word is vile. And it has to be that way as that's just how my first drafts come out but editing seems like it's a lifetime away and I just...hate it.

And then this morning I received a comment on my BB from last year, on AO3 and...Christ, I cried. It was stranger, which shouldn't make a difference but I think it does as they have no reason to be nice to me. And they were just so complimentary and invested in the characters and the story. They really connected with it emotionally and they asked for more.

I feel like I couldn't ask for anything better. It really helped to remind me that I may not be the best writer but I can tell a story that people want to read when I put my mind to it. It feels like a weight has be lifted and I'm actually looking forward to getting down to my BB this afternoon and making some headway.

Anyway, it made me really think.

Please...

When you read something someone has taken the time to write, please leave a little comment to let them know.

Even if you thought it wasn't all that, pick out a positive thing about it and say something nice.

If you don't have time to write a gushing review, just a smily face could make their day.

If you want to lurk, that's cool. But just a little wave to say you appreciate someone taking the time - to write 2.5k of Samstiel, 100k of crossover gen or some chibi!J2cowboys or whatever you find that makes you smile - doesn't mean you have to give up your anonymity. We won't hunt you down.

Writing is hard. Art is hard.

Typing : ) or ♥ in the comments takes less than two fucking seconds. And it can make so much difference to the way someone is going to feel that day.

Anyway. That's it. Rant over.

And thank you to everyone who comments on my stuff. You lovely enablers, you ♥ xxx