alexisjane

After being introduced to the wonderfully creepy Folger incest coffee commercial, it now doesn't seem like Christmas without it. This extended version is just fantastic!

"We sent you to West Africa for a reason, Ryan!"

Perfect.

Happy Festivus, Everyone xx

I've been having a massive crisis of confidence about my writing.

I haven't really wanted to talk about it as I think it's perfectly normal and I've been trying not to let it get to me. But it's hard when I feel like I don't have the time to properly concentrate on my WIPs so they're rushed and scrappy, and the BB is just endless and wholly unsatisfying to write at the moment. I've been dragging my feet with it as I can't stand writing when every word is vile. And it has to be that way as that's just how my first drafts come out but editing seems like it's a lifetime away and I just...hate it.

And then this morning I received a comment on my BB from last year, on AO3 and...Christ, I cried. It was stranger, which shouldn't make a difference but I think it does as they have no reason to be nice to me. And they were just so complimentary and invested in the characters and the story. They really connected with it emotionally and they asked for more.

I feel like I couldn't ask for anything better. It really helped to remind me that I may not be the best writer but I can tell a story that people want to read when I put my mind to it. It feels like a weight has be lifted and I'm actually looking forward to getting down to my BB this afternoon and making some headway.

Anyway, it made me really think.

Please...

When you read something someone has taken the time to write, please leave a little comment to let them know.

Even if you thought it wasn't all that, pick out a positive thing about it and say something nice.

If you don't have time to write a gushing review, just a smily face could make their day.

If you want to lurk, that's cool. But just a little wave to say you appreciate someone taking the time - to write 2.5k of Samstiel, 100k of crossover gen or some chibi!J2cowboys or whatever you find that makes you smile - doesn't mean you have to give up your anonymity. We won't hunt you down.

Writing is hard. Art is hard.

Typing : ) or ♥ in the comments takes less than two fucking seconds. And it can make so much difference to the way someone is going to feel that day.

Anyway. That's it. Rant over.

And thank you to everyone who comments on my stuff. You lovely enablers, you ♥ xxx

It's 2.30 am. I should really go to bed, but there's chocolate next to me and it keeps finding it's way into my mouth. (Darlin', I can hear your eyerolling from way over here : )

Anyway, I'm so close to getting my stuff done!. I just have to finish my minibang art contribution and complete my podficbigbang in the next five days and then everything should calm down a little : )

But I wanted to very quickly squee about my RBB writers!!!

heroic_downfall snapped up my winged boys and her fic idea is just delish!

visticuffs was very brave and grabbed my Gil/Osric pic and I'm so excited about her take on it!

And finally, if you didn't know already, the insanely talented ephermeralk, ended up with my Stripper Fireman!Sam. The poor thing is going to have to write porn, and threesomes and...well, I don't know how she's going to stand it. Poor baby. I said I'd paint her some graphic dp...I hope it'll make up for some of the hardship ; )

Anyway, I'm starting to pass out so...that

Oh, and I posted my minibang : )  \0/ Yay for minibangs!

xx

Any podficcers hosted by paraka?   I finally got the ftp thingy to work but I'll be fucking damned if it won't let me access the files in a URL. It says I need to put something into the advanced options...but I have no idea what.

WHAT THE FUCK IS HAPPENING!!!

I've been trying to make this work for 6 months and it's driving me nuts!!

Any advice gratefully recieved xx

Title - Space Alpacas( Space Alpacas )

It's 8.20 am and I've done all my posting for the day...probably : ) Just thought I'd cross-post here coz...well coz I can.

Anyhoo.

I am hosting the Women of Letters Wednesday over at spn_bunker today, asking for people to pitch an idea for an episode of spn. Summary or full shooting script, whatever you want, pitch it.
You can link to the post here.

Also, it's three days til the Red Like Blue, In Veins Of Blue one year Anniversary and I have made a vid for the comm. It's my first one so I'm really nervous. It's a bit clunky in places but I'm really happy that I tried it and that bits of it work, at least. No laughing.
Also, it's kinda NC-17 (although I tend to just stick that on everything just to cover myself) Probably NSFW




That's kinda it. Oh, and my inbox is at 745...I will get back to you, I will...it might just take me til Xmas : / ♥ xx

Title - The Grave
Pairing - Gen
Rating - PG
Disclaimer - These are my words but all my base are belong to Kripke, Sera, Ben or whoever so don't sue me. It's just for fun.
Word count - 570
Warnings - Spoiler to S9, self indulgent poetic nonsense, not cheerful but hopeful.

A/N -  This was written for the Bi-Bro Challenge over  at spn_bunker, promoting harmony and understanding between SamGirls and DeanGirls during the difficult events of S9. This came out of a conversation that I had with someone (for the love of god, raise your hand, I couldn't have done this without you but I'm senile and can't remember anything) that basically went something like...

"...being buried inside the bunker isn't a good environment for our boys...maybe they'd sort out their differences better and quicker out on the open road without doors to shut each other out."
"Yes, I guess before it was all about them being shut in together, in the car, in motel rooms..but now they have the space to shut each other out, all those walls and doors. Not good."

A thousand hugs and all the cookies are owed to the ever wonderful fannishliss who takes my ugly words and forces them to make sense. Anything that is wrong with this is my doing. She's wonderful. Thank you so much, Hunny ♥



( The Grave )

This is wings128 's fault. she rec a vid, I got into a loop and then clicked on this.

It's been up for a bit but it's new to me and goddammit! Get your tissues ready because...oh man!

Beautiful clips, beautifully edited to a beautiful song that will reach into your chest and tear chunks from your heart.

No really, it's gorgeous. watch it...with tissues x

I had a very long list of absolutely-won't-go-there's when I arrived on LJ.
Bless.
I'm so far deepdown wallowing in the dirtybadwrong now it's hard to see back and remember what they were.

RPS was something I was totally going to stay away from until I saw a post quite early on from meus_venator saying that she was going to be taking down Storm's Eye and to read it before it went. I got total fic anxiety and persuaded myself that an AU didn't count anyhoo...so I read it...and it was just incredible. And the world didn't collapse in on itself so I figured RPS AU isn't such a big deal : ) I'm afraid if you want to read the story, you'll have to buy it! as it's in the process of being published. I can't wait til it is so I can read it again!
And since king_wizard's When You Touch Me I Die J2AU is definitely on the menu.

The knotting thing bemused me from the beginning. Didn't get it. Not sure I still do but after reading kinkyheels' To See The View From Your Knees it's not so scary anymore. I don't even know why I read the first part of this but it was just riveting. And everytime she posts one, I can't figure out why I read it but I have to! The characters are just so fab (and Jared is soo evil!) and the whole dog thing is just weird but the story is so good!
And now having dipped my toe in the whole A/O/B universe with idontwant_candy's Don't Make Me Chase You my squick list has got a whole lot shorter.

The thing at the top of my definitely-not list was underage. And it still is but it seems that beautiful writing trumps pretty much everything.
I don't remember how I got to bewaretheides15 and Hard-Won inches but I did and it is just a stellar piece of writing and it should squick the hell out of me but it doesn't probably because it's about the gradual changing intimacy between the boys and the deep love and trust that engenders.
And that amulet. Can't look at the amulet in the same way ever again. Definitely a one-off though coz, well just no.

I'm somewhat amused that the big no-no I still haven't faced is Het of all things.
What's that about?
Maybe this year...*gags*...Maybe not x