Thoughts

[alexisjane]

I'm upset, and conflicted.



I've been spending the last couple of hours trying not to cry. This whole Dreamweaver thing has just been so wearing. Not so much because of finally getting confirmation on what it seems many of us had suspected and dismissed in the past, but because of the way it seems to be bringing everybody together in a great outpouring of love and support.

I just wish we could have had that a few months ago when DW started a hate post against someone who dared question the authenticity of his life. Then, a fair few number of people felt justified in jumping on his bandwagon and vilifying someone, without knowing all the facts or the intentions of that person. The anguish caused by that...it was bad, really really bad.

So while I'm happy that everyone is going to be a little more loving and hopefully a little more cautious in the future, I hope everyone is going to take a breath next time one of us histrionically announces they're being bullied or whatever. Communication on the internet is fraught with misunderstanding at the best of times, and people's intentions are never clear cut even away from the screen.

I was ready to delete my journal this morning, I'm so upset about this. The worst thing is that the person involved has such a huge capacity for love and forgiveness than in all this, they never once had a bad word to say about anyone. Including DW. In fact I wouldn't be surprised if they ask me to delete this : )

Having said that, I'm so happy and proud to know everyone on my f-list. I think people will always try to fool us, and they will probably succeed. But I would much rather have that than never know any of you : )

I do truly love your faces ♥ xxx

Comments

[jj1564.livejournal.com]

I'm on of those who fell for DW's fantasies, although I did have my doubts after the incident when his authenticity was questioned, but he was so very convincing. I mean, who would ever make up the death of a child? I wish I'd heeded the warnings back then, and I'm sorry your friend got hurt over it all.

I think we can all learn from this, and that there are many more lovely, genuine people out there than the odd bad apple. I can't hate DW as I think he has some deep psychological problems, but I hate that he's caused so much anger, sadness and upset among my flisties.

I'm pleased you decided not to delete your journal, I for one would miss you, and your wonderful art and stories. I so agree with this...

"Having said that, I'm so happy and proud to know everyone on my f-list. I think people will always try to fool us, and they will probably succeed. But I would much rather have that than never know any of you : ) "

*hugs*

[alexisjane.livejournal.com]

Oh, Darling, we all did, they were very convincing, and doing something so bizarre, it was hard to believe they were anything but real. I think we've all been hurt over this thing, DW included I dare say.

I think i was just so tired this morning. I had a chat with Milly though and I think I am going to start keeping my stuff only here and on AO3, just to protect myself a bit. But yeah, not going anywhere...just being a bit histrionic myself : )

*hugs you tight* ♥ xx

[jj1564.livejournal.com]

Thanks my dear, I agree with you that DW is probably hurting too right now, he obviously needed to create this fantasy world for some unknown reason. I'm pleased your feeling better, I'm sure you and Milly put the world to rights and had a laugh too!