Rinse and Repeat

[alexisjane]

Nano is kicking my ass.

I'm 7k behind. 28k in and they've only just had sex and the way the story is shaping up, there's no way I can resolve it in 22k. I don't really know what to do. I really want to finish but then I'm wondering if this is just another arbitrary goal I'm setting myself so I don't have to deal with things that matter.

The story is good, I think, or at least it will be when it's finessed a bit. My mom read what I have so far when she was here and keeps calling me to find out what happens next which is encouraging as she really wouldn't bother just to be supportive.

I think mostly I'm just tired and it's really hard to keep going when I'm not entirely sure where I'm headed. I have a couple of key scenes in my head but no idea how to transition between them.

Yeah, so this is me complaining about doing something I love, that is of no consequence and really isn't fucking rocket surgery : ) I'm such a jerk : )


I love Teen Wolf.

Well, I'm loving season 2 of Teen Wolf. Mostly I love Sterek but unfortunately reading Sterek fic probably makes more sense if you've seen the actual series, I think. I have watched many Sterek fan vids...too many fan vids...if there is a ash48 or a loki among them, I have not come across them yet. There are some super au trailers though with are fun, which made me think I should look for some spn ones.

Also I watched a couple of interview things, and omg Tyler H..Ho...Hoce...Unpronounceable is fucking adorable in RL!

Which is nice.

Anyway, if anyone as any recs for fic or writers to follow or comms or whatnot, I still feel like I'm trying to find my way a bit in the fandom so happy to get pointed in a suitable direction : )

If you didn't know already, there is a fanauction to help cillab42. She and her dogs really really need our help and pretty quickly too so if you can help in any way please do.

Please go here: Fanwork Auction


*****I am offering fic here and art here. *****

I really want to contribute but have zero funds right now, so please place a bid, no matter how small. I really couldn't bear the thought of Cillab having to put her dogs in a shelter, especially just before the festive season.

I'm not putting it on the comm but if you want podfic instead of fic, just buy now in the fic offer. Just for friends : ) Coz you guys are the bestest : )

Also, I was reminded of this clip earlier. I know the boys have talked about how they first met at the audition but in my head, I kinda see it being a little more like this.


Adorable J2 this way!!


Hope y'all have a lovely weekend ♥ xx

Comments

[firesign10.livejournal.com]

I feel like NaNo ended as soon as it began :-P I had just finished a couple of stories and was trying to gear up for RBB. I'm about 5K into that, and I did a 4K salt_burn_porn, but I just don't know about another 40K of words when it's already the 21st :-( I've done NaNo before and it felt like a good, motivating push, but this time it's kinda depressing.

*hugs*

[septembers-coda.livejournal.com]

I'm right there with ya, honey. I don't know if I'll do it again-- I think marathon writing is just not for me.

[alexisjane.livejournal.com]

It's completely reasonable for me to write 2k in a day. I'mslow but it's do-able. But writing 2k everyday for a month. Jebus, it's draining! I think the main problem is I didn't prep enough, which I never like to do but the damn thing has completely gotten away from me...but hey : ) it's not like I'm digging holes in the ground or anything so I shouldn't complain.

I think you've done a lot, Hun! Also trying to switch between different stories...I'd find that so hard. I think if it's depressing you then it's not worth it. It's supposed to be fun after all : ) xx

[septembers-coda.livejournal.com]

My dear, you are not a jerk! NANO IS HARD. Take it easy on yourself! You're allowed to complain when it gets frustrating. I know I do. :-) In related news, I decided I have to scrap 80+% of the 4,500 words I've written for my RBB. I pretty much have to start over, but I'm actually kind of excited about it because I got such great help from BL.

LOL about Tyler H.'s name! No idea how to pronounce it, but I love that he plays a super-stud badass werewolf, and he's all soft-spoken and adorkable in RL! Glad you're enjoying the TW. I haven't had the courage to delve into fic yet. BTW, the fic from later seasons might just not make sense because the SHOW kind of stops making sense in S 3.5. Until last night, which was the third ep of 3.5 I think, I was like "OMG TW WHAT DID YOU DO TO YOURSELF." It's getting good again, though. And STILES. Always my Stiles.

Enjoy your weekend bb!

[alexisjane.livejournal.com]

OMG, I couldn't imagine doing that! I hate to delete anything! Probably why the nano is turning out so long : ) But it so awesome that you feel excited by it! That's the most we can ever ask for, I think : )

Isn't he yummy!? omg *♥ for eyes* I think they were saying it 'hoyland' or 'hocklan' or something...maybe I should watch some more to check : )
Are you reading Occam's Razor? I'm obsessed by it. And miss_anthropic is being so sweet about me stalking her too. I'm only watching the show again because I started reading that. I didn't really enjoy S1 that much (too much het-angst for me) but S2 is just so much fun! I've laughed a lot and the monster is awesome! I've heard that S3.5 is amazing. I'm a little bit spoiled for everything and I have to say the teasery bits for that are the main reason I'm persevering coz STILES!!! I can't wait : )
Although it's going to be weird watching it and my ship not be canon being that the ship kinda came first for me : ) I'm fully expecting them to make out at some point : ) xx

[saltandburnboys.livejournal.com]

Lol, you're not a jerk - it's okay to be annoyed because something you enjoy is hard. Coz writing IS hard, and writing that solidly and steadily for a month is very hard. Just remember even if you don't quite get it finished in the time limit, you've still got a great story started and you can finish it in your own time. :-)

I love Derek/Tyler, but Stiles is my fav. I just love him so much...I can't wait to see season three...

xx

[alexisjane.livejournal.com]

I am a little bit : ) It's stupid...I have neck ache from craning towards my ipad when I type...I didn't realise I did it but writing everyday for four hours...Ow! I think it's partly coz I can't edit, which means everything is horrible...which it should be as a fist draft...but it's demoralising but also I'm worried about trying to balance keeping up the momentum with not screwing up what I'm writing. I ended up not writing today so I'll be 9k behind tomorrow. I'm going to keep going but I'm also not hopeful about finishing in time. Still, epic story is epic!!

Stiles is just so perfect! He has all the best lines and Dylan O'Brien is just incredible! Yes, everything is Stiles : ) Me too!!! ♥ x

[saltandburnboys.livejournal.com]

Honestly, I really think you need days when you don't write if you're not gonna flame out. You need down time. And don't worry about it being 'crap' - I'm sure it's not - because as you say, it's only the first draft and they're always a little rough. Well, like I said, even if it doesn't all get done in time, you'll still have an epic story on your hard drive, so it's all gonna be worth it! :-D

Yes, yes and yes. :-)

xx

[reggie11.livejournal.com]

It sounds like you're suffering from a bit of burnout. I know you're on a deadline for NaNo but what you really need to do is not write at all for 24 hours and just pull back and rest. It'll help you come back to it a little more fresh and you'll most likely be able to get a whole lot more done the following day. It's really hard to push the creative process, you tend to just get frustrated if you're forcing it. I know I do.

I don't think ash48 is into Teen Wolf, well not for vid making anyway, but Loki has made at least one vid here. I'm subscribed to her channel and I remembered seeing one on her list. But I think it may be the only one she's done.

Kick back and relax for a while, hon. You'll feel much better for it. Have a fab weekend xx

[alexisjane.livejournal.com]

I think you're right. I'm taking the day off today and just drawing in front of the TV instead. I'm trying not to think too much about it and hopefully tomorrow I can crack on. I don't think I'll "win" this time but I'm determined to get as much done as possible this month anyway.

Thank you so much for that vid! It's kinda terrifying to me that really I can just sit here and all the really quality spn stuff just appears in front of my face without me having to try. But then as soon as I step out of my bubble it's so confusing! God, and how bloody gorgeous is all Loki's stuff!

Hope you're having a good one too Hunny, and that you're recovering from your camping trip okay! : ) ♥ xx

[cuddyclothes.livejournal.com]

Feeling the way you do is understandable. I had to crank out a novel in a month--for money--and I was crazed, miserable and suffered continual headaches. But Nanowrimo is a challenge of a different sort, and if you can reframe it as a challenge rather than a goal, you might feel better for having written so much. And realistically, you have to write everything out before you can edit. I write way long and then cut, cut, cut!

Take a day off, then have at it again! Writing is HARD.

[alexisjane.livejournal.com]

Holy Mother! In a MONTH! How the hell did you do that! I mean, even if I make the 50k it's gonna be nasty
I am in awe of you *bows down* ♥

I usually don't plan too much but for this I wish I'd planned a little more. The plot is becoming quite...convoluted, so I reckon there'll be another 10k to add just in retcons in the edit.
Normally I write a chapter, then in the next sitting do a second draft and then write the next one. I think I'm actually really used to doing it that way so not allowing myself to edit and at least know I have some decent words behind me, I think it's throwing me off a bit : /

But like I said, I think the story is going to be okay so it's more my frustration at losing momentum and being so fucking sloooow when I write! It is HARD! But also fun...kinda : )

I'm having a "drawing in front of the TV" day so hopefully it'll give me time to regroup...and figure out what in the hell they're going to say to each other the morning after! But I'll worry about that tomorrow : ) xx

[milly-gal.livejournal.com]

This is part of why I didn;t sign on, simply because I knew I was never going to make the goal and I knew that was nothing to do with the lack of plot bunnies or anything. I seem to have lost my mojo for fic at the moment, six months without a single word other than my rbb for stagate atlantic bang and crack!fic.

However, I don't see this being a goal you set simply to avoid other stuff. It seems/sounds to me like a mid story/mid goal freak out maybe? I say stick at it, and see where it leads *hugs* If you need an ear or anything,y ou know where I am Xx