Day Fourteen

[alexisjane]

Day 14
In your own space, write a love letter. Write it Fandom in general, to a particular fandom, to a trope, a relationship, a character, or to your flist. Share you love and squee as loud as you want to.

Dean Winchester.
My love for you, it's depth and breath, it's very existence beyond the realms of reason, reality or sanity is known wide and far.
My real life friends don't get it. My LJ friends understand but still insist that you bottom and talk about Sam's hair all the time (which is nice to be fair). And I know that my obsession is neither healthy nor right but I do. I do love you. Because of your perfect imperfections, your steadfast inability to die and your exemplary taste in music. All of which I have found sorely lacking in the men I have given my heart to in RL.
I didn't always think of you like this. Initially you were an arrogant, manchild that seemed superficial and dumb. But I gradually warmed to you.
The way you say Awesome and Dude almost as much as me. Your love of pie. Your secret reading. Your addiction to the Magic Fingers.
And the change may have continued to be gradual if it were not for the moment. The moment I fell in love with you. The moment you said "I don't know what to do". My heart broke open and fell out of my chest into your fictional hands.
Of all the moments on or off the screen that I have seen or read, that is the perfect one for me. The one that sums up who you were and who you would become. And quite frankly, it ruined my life. 'Cause how can anything really compete with that.
So this is my love letter, to that moment. It breaks my heart. You break my heart. But no matter how many times you do, I will still love you and that moment til I die. And there's nothing that can take that back.
Truly Yours
Alex x

Comments

[alexisjane.livejournal.com]

Dammit, I think you just gave me an idea. Crap. I don't know. I'll sleep on it. I think if I do it, I have to really get my life organised so I have enough time to work on that as well as everything else. I'm so distracted right now. I have no energy. Fucking January x

[skeletncloset.livejournal.com]

Light box? They cost money though.

WHAT'S THE IDEA?????

[alexisjane.livejournal.com]

Nah, just need to stop procrastinating and do the work. And not eat crap and sleep and exercise. It'll be fine.

Jensen making horrible relationship choices and Jared being there the whole time and gradually winning him round...sounds horrible to me. I do have another old story that I really wanted to finish that I think could turn into a decent au. Maybe x

[skeletncloset.livejournal.com]

Okay, we can both do that. Make time to write, exercise and sleep. So is it your bedtime yet?

What's your WIP about?

[alexisjane.livejournal.com]

In 30 mins. Need tea first.

Oooo I don't want to spoil it for you : ) It would have to change quite alot to bring in the slash element...i shall have a think anad try and do an outline. I think I have til the 2 feb to sign up anyway.

Do you know what you're going to write? x

[skeletncloset.livejournal.com]

the JDM/Jensen cheating fic. Jensen's having Jared's baby . . . didn't we talk about it?

[alexisjane.livejournal.com]

OMG I forgot you were doing that as the BB : ) Have you written any yet? x

[skeletncloset.livejournal.com]

Only in my head. What if . . . well, I'm thinking the only way Jensen can be with Jared is if JDM grants him his freedom. Otherwise JDM can put Jared away for a long time for trying to take his mate. Jensen only has so much freedom because JDM is such a good guy, but he could take it away if it means he can keep Jensen from Jared.

And they're not slaves to their biology. I mean it only goes so far. 50 % of it is choice.

[alexisjane.livejournal.com]

What would make JDM give Jensen up though...OMG. He could promise to let him go if Jensen gives up the baby to him? x

[skeletncloset.livejournal.com]

Let's start pm-ing.

That didn't occur to me.

[skeletncloset.livejournal.com]

I can throw around ideas.

[alexisjane.livejournal.com]

I'll pm it to you x