alexisjane

So, if you follow me on Facebook you might know that yesterday I had some sad news and spent most of the day weeping and moping around.

Today, I decided that I should stop feeling so sad and try to remember some happy things. This is them.

But first, the sadness.

( Sad, sad news... )

Excited about my WIP!! Getting some reference images together to make a planning sheet as I think there's maybe another book after this one, and I'm going to attempt to plan ahead for a change.

But anyway...

( Jacob, this is everyone. Everyone, this is Jacob... )( My lovely Caleb... )

The crazy times are almost over!

Visitors leaving tomorrow and TWRBB to post, then I'm just back to the regular mad rush work stuff...which I can handle...for two weeks or so.

Then...well, we'll have to see... But I'm pretty sure that's the light at the end, not a train, if you catch my metaphor.

Just quickly though...so many huge and wonderful thanks to all the people reading and commenting on my bb! The response has been crazy positive so far so thank you so much for that if I haven't replied to your comment yet. I will...eventually : )

BUT ALSO...

I'm up to do SMPC this week and I'm all out of fic ideas.
So if you have any prompts for a down and dirty, quick 2k Sam/Dean or J2 fic, let me have 'em, ladies! My muse is tired so I need stuff she can pick through til she falls in love. I got something! Thank you for all the suggestions : )

I hope you're all okay. Can't wait to catch up with y'all soon!!! xxx

I've been having a massive crisis of confidence about my writing.

I haven't really wanted to talk about it as I think it's perfectly normal and I've been trying not to let it get to me. But it's hard when I feel like I don't have the time to properly concentrate on my WIPs so they're rushed and scrappy, and the BB is just endless and wholly unsatisfying to write at the moment. I've been dragging my feet with it as I can't stand writing when every word is vile. And it has to be that way as that's just how my first drafts come out but editing seems like it's a lifetime away and I just...hate it.

And then this morning I received a comment on my BB from last year, on AO3 and...Christ, I cried. It was stranger, which shouldn't make a difference but I think it does as they have no reason to be nice to me. And they were just so complimentary and invested in the characters and the story. They really connected with it emotionally and they asked for more.

I feel like I couldn't ask for anything better. It really helped to remind me that I may not be the best writer but I can tell a story that people want to read when I put my mind to it. It feels like a weight has be lifted and I'm actually looking forward to getting down to my BB this afternoon and making some headway.

Anyway, it made me really think.

Please...

When you read something someone has taken the time to write, please leave a little comment to let them know.

Even if you thought it wasn't all that, pick out a positive thing about it and say something nice.

If you don't have time to write a gushing review, just a smily face could make their day.

If you want to lurk, that's cool. But just a little wave to say you appreciate someone taking the time - to write 2.5k of Samstiel, 100k of crossover gen or some chibi!J2cowboys or whatever you find that makes you smile - doesn't mean you have to give up your anonymity. We won't hunt you down.

Writing is hard. Art is hard.

Typing : ) or ♥ in the comments takes less than two fucking seconds. And it can make so much difference to the way someone is going to feel that day.

Anyway. That's it. Rant over.

And thank you to everyone who comments on my stuff. You lovely enablers, you ♥ xxx

RIGHT!

Plan of action...armadillo, dog walk, shower, eat actual food, DO SOME WORK...no more fan stuff 'til later! Much later....x


Armadillo ✓
First thought - that armadillo reeeeeally loves that pink rubber teddy.
Second thought - oh god now I'm going to have to ask someone to J2 that coz it's too adorable to be anything else!
Third thought - look at his little tippytoes! Dying of cuteness : ) x

I have been answering messages and replying to comments for most of today, deleting them as I go.

I still have 402 unanswered things in my inbox.

If I haven't replied to your lovely comment or message, I just wanted to let you know that I will do my best to return it as soon as possible, that I'm not ignoring you, I'm just slow and easily overwhelmed by life : )
And that I love you profoundly.

How profoundly?

How about muscle-bound Jensen profoundly.

Huh!...Amiright!...Right! x

This is wings128 's fault. she rec a vid, I got into a loop and then clicked on this.

It's been up for a bit but it's new to me and goddammit! Get your tissues ready because...oh man!

Beautiful clips, beautifully edited to a beautiful song that will reach into your chest and tear chunks from your heart.

No really, it's gorgeous. watch it...with tissues x

The first draft is done. I'm actually having a bit of a cry but I think that's mainly because I only got two hours sleep. I'm toying with the idea of doing more as I'm not 100% satisfied with the ending but for now…it's done.
I'm going to leave it alone for a few weeks now and then tweak it some more but…god, it's taken me 25 years to get this story out of my head and on the page the way I want it to be. Could not have done it without all y'all. Thank you guys. Really.

You all are my happy thing today : ) x

If you haven't spotted it, The Bi-Bro Challenge is up at The Bunker.

The People of Letters are Bi-Bro and to encourage harmony and love as an antidote to all the wank flying around, the challenge is to create two fanworks, one from Sam's perspective and one from Dean's, that do not bash or favour either brother but address their current relationship issues.

All the details are on the comm.

Spread the Bi-Bro Loving : ) x